My Guardian Angel

Lisa. Lisa will never know exactly what she did for me just by listening to God and obeying. I had no idea that the woman who came up to me to pray over me as I lost the love of my life was struggling to believe that her gifts were actually what she was blessed with. She changed my life in ways that she wasnt even aware of just by placing a hand on my shoulder.

Lisa was challenged by God. She was told what her spiritual gifts were and was so uncomfortable that she told God he had the wrong person. She was told she would be praying out loud and in tongues over people and she just couldnt believe it because it was outside of her comfort zone. BUT GOD pushed. He showed her where she needed to be. He pushed her so much until she saw exactly what He needed her to see. She finally believed she was called to pray over others for the first time the night before Charles passed away. She accepted it. Just in time.

The night Charles passed, she was bringing her son, who was a volunteer firefighter, to the crash. She had taken her son to many calls before and had been told to stay in her car multiple times so that she wasnt in the way. She had disobeyed the lead firefighters requests in the past and had been scolded, so she was not in the habit of leaving her car anymore. BUT GOD told her something else. She was told to not listen to the earthly things and to listen to the creator. Thank God she listened. She walked up to me and placed her hand on my shoulder and introduced herself to me, which I can not remember at all. She asked to pray over me and I had no clue what it really meant, so I just said yes. I was so desperate that I didnt care what was being done, I just wanted him to be okay. Lisa continuously prayed over me that night. She said she spoke in tongues over me and I dont recall that in the slightest. I only heard english. If she had been speaking in tongues, God gave me the power to understand and not be turned off by her gifts. He knew how desperately I was going to need to hear what she had to say.

I had the vaguest memory of Lisa tucked in the back of my mind from that night. I never thought I would see her again. BUT GOD had other plans for us to realize our roles in each others lives. I had received a facebook message from a few days after the accident that went into the requests folder that I wasnt aware I had. That message sat there for years. One day while on my computer I pulled up facebook messages and saw all the unread messages I had in that folder. One was Lisa. She had said that she was at the crash site and had found Charles hat along with a few other things and would hold onto them for me to come pick up. Even though it was years later, I messaged her back not knowing at all who she was. She told me that she had the hat still tucked away in her garage and was hoping I would one day message her. We set a time to meet up, but it ended up falling through for one reason or another. Fast forward a few more years and I gave a speech about my story for an amazing mental health ministry ICUtalks. In my speech I mentioned the woman who prayed over me who stuck in my mind and I couldnt shake the memory. I posted the speech on my facebook and Lisa just happened to watch it. She immediately reached back out to me. She told me that she was the woman who prayed over me and she still had all of Charles belongings. I was so shocked that I told her I couldnt wait to meet her and needed to finally meet her that night. So I got off my couch, drove to pick up my best friend and headed an hour out of town to meet her. It was surreal to finally meet the woman who seemed like an angel in the midst of all the chaos. I am still in awe of the way our stories have been intertwined.

Listening to her tell her version of what happened that night will forever stick with me. She said she can still feel the lace of my dress when she thinks of that night. Her version is so clear. She remembers it all in such detail that I am so jealous and fearful of. I dont know if those memories would help or hurt me. But I am grateful for the memories she did help me unlock just by telling her experience. I had no idea how much God was all over that night. His hand was on every decision and heart on the side of that road. I will forever be grateful that she listened to God even though it made her so uncomfortable. She gave me back a piece of Charles I thought I had lost forever.